So It's Been a Hot Minute

As you might have noticed, the output for this site hasn't been up to its normal standards. November has seen a drop-off in articles, and there's an easy explanation for that: my brain has just not wanted to do any writing. This site has been going non-stop for two and a half years at this point with, I'd guess, 99.9 percent of the articles written my yours truly. I don't mind this, even if the concept of the site was that it is a collaborative blog for anyone that wants to contribute. I have a lot of movies (and other media) I want to write about, so if I end up doing most of the writing, normally that's not a big deal for me.

That said, every once in a while my brain gets to a point where it just doesn't want to do anything. I run a ton of projects at one time -- Asteroid G alongside CVRPG, Castlevania: The Inverted Dungeon, Dodeca System, and regularly contributing artwork, site designs, and administrative work to the Final Fantasy Randomizer community -- and that's because I need things I can shift to when I hit a wall with one of my projects. If I keep bouncing I don't normally suffer much burnout.

Well, that burnout has arrived and it's focused squarely on Asteroid G. I look at the site and think, "naw, I don't wanna work on this right now." So I put it off, and then put it off some more, and before I know it, it's the end of the day and I haven't gotten anything written and I have to go sleep for a full day of work the next day. The site sites here, largely without updates for a few days, and then I feel guilty because I haven't done anything with the site.

For creatives, this probably sounds familiar. "I didn't do anything so I feel guilty that I didn't do anything, but then when I try to do something I feel burned out and them I'm stressed because I don't want to do anything." It's a vicious cycle. That's another reason I try to have a number of projects going, so that when I feel burn out over one I can shift to a different one and not feel guilty. It's a way to manage stress and still enjoy all the things I like to do.

Asteroid G, though, is different from all my other sites. It has a set schedule of when things are supposed to happen (two articles a day, plus one podcast a week), and when that doesn't happen I feel like I'm letting people down. But burnout is a thing and if I can't get the creative juices flowing then what I do put out is scant, and usually the quality of the writing is awful. I want to do stuff for here, to continue maintaining the schedule for the site, but at the same time I'm at a point where I just can't crank out like I want.

So here's the deal: I'm going to write what I can, when I can get my brain to focus. Some weeks are going to seem pretty sparse. Other weeks might have more content. I'm going to try and promise a couple of articles a week, plus the podcast, until such time as I can finally focus and get myself back on track. I don't know how long that's going to be -- could be just a few more days of self-care, or it could be weeks -- but at some point my brain will finally click over and I'll be able to focus again. It just might not be any time soon.

Still, I appreciate everyone that comes to this site regularly. As content is created, I'll post it, and soon enough we'll be back on track. Until then, thanks, and just know that self-care is important and everyone one of us needs to take some time, once in a while, to focus and recharge. This is my period of that right now, and once it's over this site will be back to a full schedule once again.